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[Jan. 10th, 2010|12:27 am]
punkorama024
This is the first electronic entry I've made in very long. Most of them have been on paper, especially during the winter break. It's been an interesting few weeks, and I think now they've begun to culminate once again. I can't stress anymore how this is all starting to take a toll on me. The desire to act, the desire to affiliate myself with something bigger. The military no longer seems to hold that position. At times it does, but otherwise this institution continues to alienate me. Then she doesn't help, but I don't know what to do anymore. She takes up too much of my energy, at times when I need it to stay afloat elswhere. It's too much. It's more than I can take. I tried. I did. I wasn't expecting all to be forgiven. But I was expecting for there to be a little bit more leniency. But I understand there can't be. I don't know what to do with anything. Everything is a blur when she gets loud.
everything is a blur right now.
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